love.  She said that now  I  could choose  to stay on earth
or  to  go with her.  If  I  chose to live,  I  could  help  my
children along the spiritual path.  However,  I would face
much  suffering;  for the many diseases  and medications
had  caused  almost irreparable physical damage.  But if I
chose to stay,  I  would  be  helped  step  by  step  toward
ultimate healing. If I chose death, I would not be blamed,
for  I  had endured so much pain.  I wanted to go with my
grandmother,  but  I  could  not  leave  my children in the
circumstances predicted  for them.  I  chose to stay.  My
grandmother smiled as she faded from view.
      I floated for some time in a realm of visions. In one I
dreamed:   I   see   the   Christ  seated   on  a  hilltop  with
millions  of people of all religions coming  to Him,  each at
their own pace.  I  feel  Christ's  great  love,  patience and
compassion  for  each  person.   At  one  point  I  hear  the
words,  "And  I,  when  I  am lifted up,  will  draw  all  men
unto me."  I  also viewed  many scenes  and  experienced
revelations  that reshaped my understanding  of  God and
man.
      For the next three months I received almost constant
guidance  to  help  me find healing.  During this period  I
was partially paralyzed,  so  I  spent  most  of my time in
bed,    often    napping    and    dreaming.   I   experienced
nonsymbolic dreams that gave me explicit directions for
medication (drugs available in the house), vitamins, diet,
baths,  etc.  The dream information often came through a
voice   giving   me   detailed   instructions  for  the  day's
activities.  At other times, the instructions came from an
angelic  figure  or  from  my grandmother.  For example,
one  night my grandmother appeared  in a dream and told
me  to  take one-half teaspoon  of instant coffee crystals
three times  a  day  after meals,  followed  by  one-fourth
cup of water.
      Some nights  I dreamed of sitting in classes listening
to lectures  on healing,  God, life, etc.  Also  there  were
rare moments of indescribable bliss, when  I dreamed of
kneeling  before figures  robed in white light.  One time,
one  of these beings laid his hands on  my  head,  pouring

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