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Colleen. I also feel that  I'll never be able to communicate
all that  I have been through-fear,  death-and  it  will even
be harder coming home to a strange atmosphere.  I do not
go into the house.

     Colleen's  written  reflections  on  her  dream  read as
follows:

     I  have  a fear of airplanes,  and since  coming back
from vacation  they have occurred  in my dreams three
times.  My  last flight  was  a  bad one and  I was really
scared.  I  am  just  getting  over  the  instability  of  my
nerves.  When  I  fly  I  am putting my life into someone
else's hands.  I saw Charlton Heston in previews of the
movie
Skyjacked. I was named after Russ's wife and we
live  in  the house that  she grew up in and  I  have her
room.  Jim  Jackson  and  I  rode  the  same  bus  and I
wondered if I had an image of him in the very back on
the plane because  all  the boys liked to sit in the back
seat  of  the  school  bus.   I  spent  five  hours  in  S.  F.
Airport watching takeoffs.  When  I  was a freshman in
high school  I  wrote  a paper on a group of people on
an  airplane who knew  that their fate was probably at
hand.   I  wrote  about  each  person's  reaction  to  the
situation   and  ended   the  story   without  letting  the
reader know if the plane crashed or not.
    My feeling for wanting to get home is heightened by
the attitude of all the people towards the dead people.
I  recall  the  movie 
Future  Shock  where  the  airlines
counter girl  is actually a robot,  or functions like one.
Toni,  in  my  seminar,  had  written  in  her evaluation
about    how    she    dealt    from    a    smiling,   happy,
understanding    viewpoint    because   of   her   airline
training.
     As  I  crossed the street  and walked down the block
there was  no  traffic  or  people.  I  felt alone.  When  I
went home at Christmas there were a lot of changes in
me   that   I   was  unable  to  communicate.   My  whole
outlook  towards  myself  had  changed  but when  I go
home  I just sort of fit in where  I  was when I left.  That
is okay but I get frustrated when  I want to share inner
experiences. Death is a real experience and if  I had to
tell  my parents  that their friends  were dead  it would
be so difficult.  I  have  to  learn  to  deal with fear and
death on my own.  In the beginning of the dream  I was
in the country. It is quiet and beautiful. It is as soon as

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