I may realize that  I am "doing  myself  sad, or that  I  am
"having"  the  locker—monster  "part of  me" scaring  the
out—of—touch" part of me Watching  my dreamtheater,
perceiving  it  from the vantage  point of dreamlanguage,
I   wake  up  to   the  fact   that  I  am  the  creator  of  my
experience.   Realizing   that  I   "do  myself"   can  be   a
liberating discovery, and  I  find that it is through dreams
and dreamwriting that   I  most regularly learn about how
I am "doing myself."
     There comes a moment while I'm tuning in to a dream
when something exciting begins to happen.  I feel stirred.
The  light   begins   to  dawn.  Exhilaration,   a   sense   of
discovery and  delight fills me. There are many  methods
to  tap into this  energy,  this  process  of  self—creation.
I  realize  more  every  day that these methods  are not in
themselves  effective.  I  might  have  done   all  kinds  of
dreamwork,   meditation,   fantasy   exercises,   chanting,
prayer, sports,  massage, bodywork, art, and  so  on  until
I  was  blue  in  the  face  and  still  not  have experienced
the  healing   transformation.  Somewhere   there   is  the
inception   of   the  inspirational,  life—renewing   force,
responding to human needs and devotion.  I sense myself
reaching out and life reaching out to me.
     Every  dream  is  a  gift  from   the  unknown  we  give
ourselves. There  are  no  bad dreams. Each dream offers
an opportunity to grow and partake of life.  Every  dream
reflects  the  dreamer  back  to  himself.  The  beauty  of
dreams is that they give  us what we need, in small doses,
so that we  need  never be afraid. They  arrive day  by day,
and if we take in their messages  and let happen whatever
needs to  happen, they  lead  us  step by step in  our  lives.
Paying attention  steadily  and  lovingly to our dreams  is
what  brings  results. Without  love  it  is  just  plain hard
work.
     When we get to the place  where dreams  come  from
the inner self,  the place beyond imaging  and perception,
the place of total stillness—we know exactly what  to do.
We get to the heart of the matter.
     Our dreams become our individual initiations through
the  successive stages  of our lives,  our personal rites of
passage on our path to fulfillment.

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