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myself making a mistake part of me
(Mistake: miss-
takea take on life which misses the mark; no shame
or blame, but calls for a retake) how I have
myself
keep activating these contrivances part of
me, in me.
"I didn't know!" I have myself
cry. "I never meant to
evoke the robot mechanisms in me. I only wanted
to
open the doors in me. "I have
the man part of me
show me another way part of me to open
the doors
part of me without
having myself trigger
the
mechanisms part of me, in me.
Putting
this dream into
dreamlanguage shows
me how I have my "buttons"
pressed while I behave
as if they're not, and
how complicated I make the
whole machinery of this concealment.
I keep myself
"out of touch" in many ways, like always
being busy, so
that the situation gets "over my
head." I make myself
helpless, putting it beyond my ability
to understand, to
grasp, to take responsibility for. With
the disclaimer,
"I didn't know! I didn't mean to!" I
reveal to myself how
I was unintentionally making myself
a victim, trying
to make an everyday craziness appear
"normal," even
at a high cost in energy. But
by becoming aware of
the pattern, seeing that my actions were automatic
and
not achieving the desired results, and by asking for help,
I become receptive and ready to learn a more effective
pattern. I suspect that many of our dreams are similarly
oriented toward helping us become aware of automatic,
but ineffective, patterns and
are suggesting creative
alternatives. The sense of despair in the
dream is the
crucial opening whereby I allow
myself to become
receptive to the part of me that knows
and can put me
on the right track. This character,
this part of me that
knows, is the star in my cast. Coming to me as a
man in
this dream, and as a child or woman, bird or light, words
or often as myselfthis is the voice of my inner self.
DOING
MYSELF
"Doing
myself is an apt phrase
in dreamlanguage
that puts in a nutshell my basic approach to dreams. It
is
shorthand for owning the effects I create.
For instance,
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